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[Nov. 29th, 2009|10:48 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
... I don't know why I feel obligated to ... help her, as though it doesn't ... He knows, of course, that we'll be leaving this place. We'll likely never return. It's completely irresponsible of him to ... involve himself, with any of these courtiers. ... Granted, it's a sight better than watching him and ... Fayre, but ...
Dragons, why am I even ... what is the point, exactly? He knows all of this just as well as I do, and he's still ... obviously, he's happy enough with her to put it all aside, for the sake of it, so ...
I just wish she hadn't come to me. |
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[Nov. 27th, 2009|11:55 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
I ... really have no wish to see Kail and Lady April ...
Ah, but what excuse do I have to give? It's not as though I could tell the truth ... and he would wonder why, if I refused, and -- I'm so tired of lying. Sometimes, haha ... it truly does hit me, how much of my life is a lie, right now ... a convenient, and not altogether unpleasant lie, but ...
I shouldn't complain. It could be ... much worse. Much, much worse ...
I hope that she ... they ... are at least, ah ... discreet.
[Filter: Pearl]
Ah, Pearl?
Kail has extended you and I an invitation to join him and Lady April, from the Hanalan Court, for dinner tonight. You may know her, actually. She's been about, here and there ... haha, Kail fancies her, and -- well, I always do enjoy our nights out, haha ... would you like to join them, with me...? |
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[Oct. 31st, 2009|02:53 pm] |
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[Filter: Faith]
I don't suppose that you've decided where you'll spend the evening, yet?
Haha ... I keep thinking that I'd better not go, since I've hardly prepared myself for it, but ... do you know if Lord Lawrence will be going? I think Lord Kail plans to go, at least ...
[Filter: Pearl]
Have you given any thought to how you'd, ah ... like to spend the evening...? |
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[Oct. 11th, 2009|05:52 pm] |
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[Filter: Franelcrew in Floran]
Ah ... I just wanted to thank everyone, for yesterday ... that was quite thoughtful, and, ah ... haha, Pearl, you especially ...
I had a wonderful time. |
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[Sep. 30th, 2009|10:01 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
I wonder ... how many will choose to stay behind, in the end...? It's plain that others are considering it ... the way they act, the things they say ... and don't say, that as well.
There's no place like home, of course ... there's no replacement for the place that you grew up. There are too many memories ... there's just, ah, too much that can't be packed up and taken elsewhere ... too much that is tied too closely to the land itself. Franel will always be my home, and -- I would never stop, never, not until it is restored in full. But ...
If that were not the case ... if it never were restored. I do not know if I could bring myself to live there as it is, Lireth land, empty of all the things I loved ... a shell of what it was ...
But this place ...
Haha, idle thoughts, to be sure. We'll never give up ... that's unthinkable. But ... I think part of me will envy those who do choose to stay ... |
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|10:51 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
I ... think that did go rather well. It's not ... it's hardly perfect, but considering how things have been ...
It's a relief to see everyone smiling. Our injured are recovering, and the rest of us are all remembering that we have plenty to be grateful for, in spite of everything else ... this Festival truly was well timed, though as always, we're better able to appreciate such things when looking back.
I only wish that Keagan and the others could have been here ... all signs indicate that they''ll be out there well into the forseeable future, don't they? And hardly a word from the Prince, or that ... ah, woman.
But it could be worse ... that's what we mustn't lose sight of. It can always be worse, really ... |
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[Aug. 16th, 2009|08:09 pm] |
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[Filter: Franelcrew on board the Titannia]
There's a second ship approaching from the opposite side as the first. They'll both pass very near us ... if I were to make a guess, I would say they intend to cut us off, on our current route.
I ... have a very bad feeling about this. I think it may be best to advise the others to barricade themselves, until we can speak with the men on these approaching vessels. If they'll even be open to talking, that is ...
The ship that Miss Livia pointed out to us first will be here somewhat before this second ... I'm not sure if that's poor coordination, or intentional ... |
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[Aug. 15th, 2009|11:50 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
Ah, this is ... actually very nice, isn't it...?
It's still awkward, in places, but that was expected, considering the company. But it's not quite the same as simply being at Court, either ... perhaps it's because so many of our own group came along, after all. The close quarters makes it easier to stay together, perhaps ... ah, even Kail hardly looks so bad, and that's certainly a first, so far as boats go ...
Though it doesn't seem quite right to call this a mere boat, haha. I'm sure everyone would be offended, if anyone referred to it that way aloud.
I do wish that Keagan and Faith could be here, as well, but ... ah, there was nothing to be done about that.
[Filter: Pearl]
Well, ah ... you're enjoying yourself, I hope...? I believe the musicians are taking requests, so if you happen to have one, I could pass that along...! I think they were going to try to begin a dance number, but ... ah, it's still taking some getting used to, being on a boat where that is even remotely possible, haha ...
[Filter: Kail]
You, ah ... if you don't mind my saying so, my Lord, you do seem to be getting along very well with that Courtier ... April, isn't it? I remember her ... She was there with us, on the night of Festival, wasn't she...? |
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[Aug. 6th, 2009|11:08 am] |
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[Filter: Pearl]
Ah, Pearl ... I was wondering, are you terribly busy, today...? |
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[Jul. 20th, 2009|12:31 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
Honestly, it could have gone worse. It ... could have gone much worse. I don't think -- I'm not being unreasonable, not at all. It's just ... Kail has never accepted ...
He never will, either.
It could have gone worse, but I still feel so -- It's ... It's ridiculous. I'm not a child, and I ... I was in the right.
I understand perfectly well why they say there should always be that ... seperation, between a Lord and his knights ... it ... as grateful as I am to be his friend at all, that we've all grown so close, and come to depend on one another as we have ...
Well, this is why they say so, isn't it? Kail and I were always ... ah, but no one ever minded, what we were ...
... Because no one expected anything like this. Vows and honor and codes of conduct are all very easy to swear by when it's simply formality.
I wouldn't trade it, not ... how could I? But it makes so many things so much more difficult. I ... I can't deny that. |
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[Jul. 5th, 2009|06:36 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
She seems to do better each day ... ah, expected, of course, but still such a relief to see ...
I wish Faith were ... better able to enjoy it, too. I still can't believe she just -- she can be so careless. It's not the same as it was, back then ... we're not as expendable as she seems to think she is, sometimes. Perhaps back then, when laying your life down for someone of such high regard as Prince Finlay would have been honor, and expected, but ... it's not the same. Our entire House depends on us living,, seeing this through to the end. I'm sorry for the Prince, of course, but our vows are to Franel ...
And Kail I should ... talk to him, or
... Lady Celeste and Lord Lawrence are both well, and that was ... what we set out to accomplish, no? Regardless of what else has happened ... But |
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[Jun. 8th, 2009|03:11 pm] |
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[Filter: Pearl]
Ah, well ... by the sound of things, I gather I've missed your play. I'm truly sorry for that ... I wish the timing had been better, haha ... but I suppose there will be others, in the future...?
Regardless ... I hope your closing went well. Aelinoir and Jonathan both have yet to give any specific timeframe, for when they might be finish, and it's important not to rush when it's so important that he learns this technique right, of course, so we could be some time yet. It's difficult to say ... |
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[Jun. 4th, 2009|08:32 am] |
[Filter: Private]
No matter how often or long I consider it, I just can't piece together how it could possibly be ... to think that the first concrete indication that our House ever existed would come from the Atsirian archives ... it's absurd. Everything about this is absurd in its own way, however, so perhaps when one thinks of it that way, it's not such a surprise ...
We'll simply have to see if she finds more. What there was ... it's indicative, but not terribly useful ... perhaps if there's a trail, of some kind, and we could determine where it ended? Where, exactly, our roots in the history of this world have vanished ...
... It's something, but ... one thing at a time. We need to finish here, first, before we set our minds to other matters ... |
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[May. 18th, 2009|03:03 pm] |
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[Filter: Finlay and Rae]
Do you two understand what we need you to do? This is a very important task ... if you have any questions, please ask. |
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[May. 4th, 2009|09:57 am] |
[Filter: Kail, Keagan, Faith]
... I suppose if our options are keeping her with us and sending her back alone, that's ... really not much of an option at all. So, ah, we're keeping her with us, I presume...?
At least she and the Prince can keep each other busy, I suppose ... Dragons, what a mess. We can afford the extra supplies, but ... ah, well. It's a good thing we packed more than we'd need ...
According to our maps, we're at least over halfway there ... ah, I suppose it will only be a few more days, now. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2009|01:00 am] |
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[Filter: Private]
... Two weeks, soon, and there hasn't been any change at all ... if any questions were yielding answers, someone would say, and ... there's no telling how long it will go on, how long it can go on ...
It's ... it's important not to lose faith, I know ... ah, after finding Kail on that mountain, unharmed, I'm ... I'm quite convinced that anything at all is possible, but -- Dragons, it doesn't make waiting any easier ... not knowing ... and at least, with Kail, there was a search to occupy us all ...
We're not even in Korin, yet. If this is how it is before we even ... ah, I can't even ...
Dragons, what a nightmare this is ... |
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[Apr. 12th, 2009|07:23 pm] |
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[Filter: Lord Lawrence, Lord Kail, Keagan, Faith]
Ah, I think ... it may be a good idea to try and consolidate the group as much as possible, tonight. I realize everyone has been content to scatter amongst themselves, while we've been here, but ... perhaps it's worth the effort to act as one group, tonight, as much as we can.
At least until we can be sure of how ... dramatic tonight is going to be? |
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[Mar. 25th, 2009|11:10 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
Ah ... haha, and how precisely did ...
Dragons, time really is flying by ...
[Filter: Lady Celeste]
Ah, my Lady? Do you have a moment, by chance? |
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[Mar. 24th, 2009|10:23 pm] |
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[Filter: Private]
... I haven't even the slightest idea what I'm doing. With Pearl, it's ... quite easy to simply pretend nothing's changed, but then there are those moments, ah ... moments where it's difficult to deny ... and it's well and good to say we should simply keep on the same, but ... ah, well ...
... I'm glad that she'll have this play to work on, for a time ... I think it will be good for her. She truly does seem to enjoy acting, and ... ah, yes.
And I suppose it will give me more time to ... ah ... attend court. I can't imagine what's in his head, that he's so concerned, but ... he clearly is, and so ... haha, what else can I do. ... Hm ...
One day at a time, I suppose... |
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[Mar. 1st, 2009|08:49 pm] |
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[Filter: Lady Celeste]
Ah ... haha, I suppose you'll be hearing quite a lot of this, today, but ... happy birthday, my Lady. I hope you have a wonderful day ... |
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